When she died,  I felt free. I did. But at the same time lost. My life was unconventional and I didn’t know what end was up. I got over the grieving stages,  but the damage was done. As time went on, I  came to a few realizations and clarifications as well.

Done was the manipulation and slavery. It was time for me. Finally,  be who I was, who I was supposed to be. A lot of time has passed, but as they say, you’re  never too old, and it’s never too late. I got a second chance, a second life….what do I do with it?

Standing alone is better than standing with people who hurt you.”

I’m very fortunate to have a family who is so supportive even though things weren’t great in the past. I am so fortunate for my wife, my true soul mate. Yet, I do have tons of regrets and made many mistakes, but I did my time. Time to shine.

I realize I have a second chance. I can start over. I survived life changing and altering abuse. Just need to keep working on it. Working on me. It gets better, but we do have to put in the work. But I also know that falling is easy, it the getting back up part…

Need to talk about it, share, and also find avenues  to deal. I jokingly refer it to Help and Hobbies. Seek help from friends, family, and finding things to keep the mind and body busy, no matter what it is. Time to keep going.