Life is hard sometimes….too bad there wasn’t an easy way to navigate through it. I always hear that it’s what you make of it, and it is what you make of it, which is true, but that only applies to the things you CAN control….whatever LIFE shows at you is another story.

My life didn’t turn out as I planned. Dreams just mere mirages and fantasies. But I couldn’t predict where my life was going. I didn’t plan on running away at 15, being groomed, living a life that could be made into a made for tv movie…but it’s not where you been, it’s where you’re at, right?

I’ve been contemplating a lot lately about where I  go from here. I feel like things have been laid out in front of me, but know me, don’t know what to do with it. I feel like I  have been handed a gift as strange as it sounds. But I feel like I’m holding back. The uncertainty,  the lack of faith, in myself and in others is a current roadblock.

Maybe I’ll figure it out. But sometimes, I  feel like I’m running out of time. I feel like the universe is playing a trick on me,using me as an experiment. I get it, I  got it, let’s move on. But am I  ready? My life is a hot topic, a slippery slope if you will. Do you tread lightly,  or come out hot out the gate?

Anyway, I don’t mean to be negative or dramatic. That’s not the intention. I kinda know where I’m at and what needs to be done. In fact, I  have begun (finally) doing the work, now that life is a little more stable. Seeking the proper help, and taking steps, no, leaps I need to make.

So, if you are in the same boat, just keep on keeping on. Got to put in the work and have trust. Oh, and by the way, check out “The Whale”. It’s a great film, and I could relate to some of it. Moving forward….

“I know not all that may be coming, but be it what it will, I’ll go to it laughing.”