I don’t get it sometimes…..I would consider myself a good person.  I live my life right. I’ve even had people tease me about it. You get back what you cast out, no? I’m just wired that way. To be considerate, understanding,  and kind. If more people practiced that, the world would be a WAY better place. That’s the world I want to live in.

But that’s not how it is, is it? As a matter of fact, it seems the world is getting crazier by the minute. Just want a world with  no drama. Yeah, it’s not going to happen. But how’s the saying go? ” Be the change you wish to see in the world”. It’s true. Very true.

But I’m broken. How will I be the change? I know I’ll never be perfect.  I know this. Took me a long time to realize and open my eyes to things. There was damage done. But, getting back up and moving on is the name of the game. No matter what, or who, gets thrown at me. But I seem to be a magnet. What’s my purpose?

I wonder about that a lot. Maybe I went through what I went through for a reason. Maybe I’m wired the way I am because there’s something there. The abuse, mental issues, etc. have been clouding and fogging up the process. But I don’t just want to fix me, I want the same for others. That’s the world I want to live in.

So, getting there, even though it’s long overdue. But there is no better place or time than now even though I’ve been quite literally used and abused. But I’m better than that. We all are, aren’t we? The path is there. Ijust got to sweep away the dirt.