It’s true. I think that would be pretty accurate, at least for myself.  I’ve always felt like I never fit in. A square peg trying to fit in a round hole. Even today, as an adult, I find myself still feeling that way. It certainly got worse as I got older. Doesn’t make it any less awkward or uncomfortable.

I don’t think much of myself, and 9 times out of 10, put others before myself. That’s how I’m wired, though….to be kind, considerate, and friendly. I accept  that the world isn’t like that, but how’s it go? Be the change. Total work in progress.  It’s just a matter of practice. Falling is easy. Getting up is the problem. Point is to get up.

I also feel that I don’t relate,  especially to most males. I know it may sound strange, but I still feel like a boy among men. I’m totally  not your typical “dude”.  I really didn’t have a childhood since I had to grow up so fast, being robbed. I still feel like a teenager going through growing pains.

Sure, lots of damage has been done. Being forced to be an adult when you are still in the developmental stages of your life has taken its toll. But, we all become adults and have to deal as such. Looking for the appropriate help is paramount, familiar help is nice,  but professional help is better.

Sometimes, we need to fill those gaps, those missing parts of our lives. Deal with the regret….not by wallowing,  but coming up with understanding, solutions, and practice. Life is too short… especially when some is taken away. It’s time for us to fill those gaps and live like we’re supposed to. How we were intended to.