Category: Alternative

Alternative

  • Bad Banana.

    The holidays are upon us….but you know what? I’m not really feeling it. I find also, the older I get, the less, to be honest,  care. Don’t get me wrong, it’s not a bah-humbug. You’re a mean one, Mr. Grinch thing, but the holidays got so…meaningless.  So blah. So… whatever. All my issues aside, the…

  • Yes, I’m older. Yes, I’m moving on…

    Here we are…light at the end of this year’s tunnel. I realize the older I get, more and more things change. Your body, your looks, your mindset, your attitudes. Change is inevitable regardless,  but as you get older, it hits different…at least I think so. Things become somewhat clearer, priorities change. Some changes are natural, …

  • The Bright Side of Life – Melissa Bright

    Today, I’d like to give a special shout out to a person I have met on my journey. Her name is Melissa Bright, and she is a self-worth coach. In the short time I’ve talked to her and interacted, she’s been a big help. I highly recommend you check her out on TikTok, Instagram, and…

  • The Great pretender….

    It’s tiring….really is. And I hate to sound like I’m complaining or looking for sympathy…I’m not, but somethings gotta give. I know what I have to do…all of it’s long overdue. I act like I’m okay,  but I’m not. Not saying there is no good in there, but over the years I have gotten very…

  • When I became a man, I put away childish things…

    I often find myself slipping into an awkward state of mind. The anxiety and depression disorder do have a part in it, and so does the other trauma I’ve suffered.  But I do take some of the blame. The only person in the mirror is you. Point the finger, I dare you. There’s multiple fingers…

  • You’re gonna fail. Yeah, you.

    You will. I guarantee it. I feel like I’m failing daily… but who’s fault is that? If that’s the attitude we tell ourselves in the mirror,  first thought in our heads in the morning,  sure, you WILL fail. Life’s hard, I know this first hand, but what side do we want to be on? The…

  • Sins of the father.

    I remember when I was younger,  I  vowed to myself, NEVER to get married, or have children.  Well, just like that, I was married, adopting 3 children,  and then came a fourth. Life is funny sometimes, isn’t it? But this situation is anything but funny. Fifteen when it started, groomed, manipulated,  inheriting things I wasn’t…

  • The monster and the cocoon.

    A monster is a monster, no matter what. I honestly cringe at realizing or acknowledging  this, but it’s true. I need to constantly remind myself this. Sometimes monsters hide, even in plain sight. We also have preconceived notions of what one is, what it looks like, and our precepctions predetermined. Abuse comes in different shapes…

  • Did my time…

    When she died,  I felt free. I did. But at the same time lost. My life was unconventional and I didn’t know what end was up. I got over the grieving stages,  but the damage was done. As time went on, I  came to a few realizations and clarifications as well. Done was the manipulation…

  • Gotta be who I know I am inside.

    This may be a tough one…. My wife and I watched a movie a few days ago that kind of hit me and stayed with me… even writing this. It was a film called May December, and I guess it’s loosely based on the Mary Kay Letourneau case. For those not familiar,  in a nutshell,…