Category: Journal

Journal

  • Carry on my wayward son…

    So I made it… half a century. In the past, I wouldn’t really care. Still don’t, but it’s not like that. I do appreciate I’ve made it this far, and you know what? All the bad things and BS in my life, I survived.  Here, still alive and kicking. It’s all about mindset and priorities.…

  • Cause everyone is trying to rain on my parade.

    It’s so easy to let others bring us down one way or the other, but what about us? Sure, blame could be put on others for our shortcomings to an extent,  but do we ever have the guts to look at ourselves in the mirror and realize one of the biggest culprits can be the…

  • Progress… the God’s magnificent.

    “March on. Do not tarry. To go forward is to move toward perfection. March on, and fear not the thorns, or the sharp stones on life’s path.” Progress, not perfection.  That’s a motto I have been trying to follow more and more every day. I feel there has been progression in my life,  even though…

  • Raise your voice, sticks, and stones.

    So here we are…knocking on the big 5 0. I made it this far. And I am grateful for it. I believe that I’m very fortunate to be where I am right now, given another day to get to where I want to go… where I want to be. Getting there. Putting my foot down…

  • Be the candle or the mirror that reflects it.

    Recently, my wife and I were discussing our day, and I shared an observation that I have made in the past, which has come up again. Why is it that some people don’t know how to accept kindness and consideration? It’s like they don’t know what to do with it. Even something as simple as a…

  • Things aren’t the way they were before.

    I’m an overweight,  middle-aged dude who has OCD, mixed depression anxiety disorder, social issues, and was a victim of grooming and abuse….think that covers most of it. Not to mention the offshoots or branches that come off such things. How did we get here? How has it driven my life? Is it like this forever?…

  • Off of this chest and I rest again peacefully.

    “You wear a mask for so long, you forget who you were beneath it“ Don’t know about others,  but sometimes I think about who I really am. How authentic I’m being to myself and others. What level of dishonesty am I carrying or projecting to protect myself from myself and the outside world. I’ve admittedly…

  • Knew not who I was, but listen here.

    We all do. We all have the freedom to choose.  Even if life is not ideal, or the stack is against you, there’s choices and decisions that can be made. I know in my life, especially the last year, it has been challenging. But I had a choice. Do I wallow and perpetuate the negative,…

  • Cause you’re a liar.

    Resolutions…nope. I was never one to make them… Shoot, knowing me, they wouldn’t last anyway. Most people are guilty of this. Why bother? We just need to be completely honest with ourselves and stop using things and making up excuses.  I get it, sometimes things aren’t so cut and dry, but there’s usually a way…usually…

  • Ascend, may you find no resistance…

    Yup, still the holidays. I hope everyone got what they wanted. Me, I’d say that I did. I got more time… more time with my family,  loved ones, and those I care about. Clarity, epiphanies, and avenues for the ongoing journey. Sure, material things are nice, but as I have stated before, none of that…