Category: Journal

Journal

  • Bad Banana.

    The holidays are upon us….but you know what? I’m not really feeling it. I find also, the older I get, the less, to be honest,  care. Don’t get me wrong, it’s not a bah-humbug. You’re a mean one, Mr. Grinch thing, but the holidays got so…meaningless.  So blah. So… whatever. All my issues aside, the…

  • Yes, I’m older. Yes, I’m moving on…

    Here we are…light at the end of this year’s tunnel. I realize the older I get, more and more things change. Your body, your looks, your mindset, your attitudes. Change is inevitable regardless,  but as you get older, it hits different…at least I think so. Things become somewhat clearer, priorities change. Some changes are natural, …

  • The Bright Side of Life – Melissa Bright

    Today, I’d like to give a special shout out to a person I have met on my journey. Her name is Melissa Bright, and she is a self-worth coach. In the short time I’ve talked to her and interacted, she’s been a big help. I highly recommend you check her out on TikTok, Instagram, and…

  • The Great pretender….

    It’s tiring….really is. And I hate to sound like I’m complaining or looking for sympathy…I’m not, but somethings gotta give. I know what I have to do…all of it’s long overdue. I act like I’m okay,  but I’m not. Not saying there is no good in there, but over the years I have gotten very…

  • Good times gone, and you missed them…

    Tis the season…for me, this year, to be frank, sucked. Can’t wait for it to be over. It’s so bitter sweet, but here I am. As I get older,  It seems like I realize things even clearer now than ever before….but the spirits willing, but the flesh weak. Got the blueprint and the tools, but…

  • The empty can rattles the most…

    “The empty can rattles the most”…or for you Shakespeare or Plato fans…”The empty vessel makes the loudest sound…It’s amazing, observing and interacting with my fellow human beings how true the statement really is. Perhaps my blog and my writing are indicators. I’ve been hiding for so long, and now I want to be heard. I’ve…

  • When I became a man, I put away childish things…

    I often find myself slipping into an awkward state of mind. The anxiety and depression disorder do have a part in it, and so does the other trauma I’ve suffered.  But I do take some of the blame. The only person in the mirror is you. Point the finger, I dare you. There’s multiple fingers…

  • You’re gonna fail. Yeah, you.

    You will. I guarantee it. I feel like I’m failing daily… but who’s fault is that? If that’s the attitude we tell ourselves in the mirror,  first thought in our heads in the morning,  sure, you WILL fail. Life’s hard, I know this first hand, but what side do we want to be on? The…

  • Sins of the father.

    I remember when I was younger,  I  vowed to myself, NEVER to get married, or have children.  Well, just like that, I was married, adopting 3 children,  and then came a fourth. Life is funny sometimes, isn’t it? But this situation is anything but funny. Fifteen when it started, groomed, manipulated,  inheriting things I wasn’t…

  • Doesn’t play well with others…

    It’s true. I think that would be pretty accurate, at least for myself.  I’ve always felt like I never fit in. A square peg trying to fit in a round hole. Even today, as an adult, I find myself still feeling that way. It certainly got worse as I got older. Doesn’t make it any…