Category: Metal

Metal

  • I’m pretty sure if you’ve been following this blog, I may have mentioned changing,  change,  or going through changes…but life is like a river, continuously flowing,  moving, changing the surface of the rocks and earth beneath and around them. Water flows, and finds a way. Stagnant water really does nothing. So, here we go again.…

  • I’m my own worst critic… my own worst bully… my own worst judge. And I’m quick to condemn and lock myself up and throw away the key. Sound familiar? I was pretty bad when it came to those things, but I’m getting WAY better. Have been for a while now. But we always judge ourselves…

  • It’s so easy to let others bring us down one way or the other, but what about us? Sure, blame could be put on others for our shortcomings to an extent,  but do we ever have the guts to look at ourselves in the mirror and realize one of the biggest culprits can be the…

  • I’m an overweight,  middle-aged dude who has OCD, mixed depression anxiety disorder, social issues, and was a victim of grooming and abuse….think that covers most of it. Not to mention the offshoots or branches that come off such things. How did we get here? How has it driven my life? Is it like this forever?…

  • Resolutions…nope. I was never one to make them… Shoot, knowing me, they wouldn’t last anyway. Most people are guilty of this. Why bother? We just need to be completely honest with ourselves and stop using things and making up excuses.  I get it, sometimes things aren’t so cut and dry, but there’s usually a way…usually…

  • Yup, still the holidays. I hope everyone got what they wanted. Me, I’d say that I did. I got more time… more time with my family,  loved ones, and those I care about. Clarity, epiphanies, and avenues for the ongoing journey. Sure, material things are nice, but as I have stated before, none of that…

  • “The empty can rattles the most”…or for you Shakespeare or Plato fans…”The empty vessel makes the loudest sound…It’s amazing, observing and interacting with my fellow human beings how true the statement really is. Perhaps my blog and my writing are indicators. I’ve been hiding for so long, and now I want to be heard. I’ve…

  • I remember when I was younger,  I  vowed to myself, NEVER to get married, or have children.  Well, just like that, I was married, adopting 3 children,  and then came a fourth. Life is funny sometimes, isn’t it? But this situation is anything but funny. Fifteen when it started, groomed, manipulated,  inheriting things I wasn’t…

  • A monster is a monster, no matter what. I honestly cringe at realizing or acknowledging  this, but it’s true. I need to constantly remind myself this. Sometimes monsters hide, even in plain sight. We also have preconceived notions of what one is, what it looks like, and our precepctions predetermined. Abuse comes in different shapes…

  • Life is hard sometimes….too bad there wasn’t an easy way to navigate through it. I always hear that it’s what you make of it, and it is what you make of it, which is true, but that only applies to the things you CAN control….whatever LIFE shows at you is another story. My life didn’t…