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Random

  • And there is no map.

    I know I haven’t posted in a while, but life, you know….how’s the saying go? When it rains, it pours. Well, the storm cloud seemed to have plated itself above me. Am I struggling? Little bit, but I m a work in progress, and I am looking for the silver lining. Got to. “You can…

  • Oh, these sour times…

    Apologies for the delay in posting family,  but as always, life gets in the way. Fires, dealing with anxiety and depression, busted water heaters, and now add the stress of job hunting….life’s good….no, really, life is good. Doesn’t seem like it, and hey, I’m human, and it triggers from time to time, but everyone goes…

  • Knew not who I was, but listen here.

    Do you know who you are? Do you? I know who I am… in a nutshell,  I’m  a middle-aged, overweight dude who suffers from body dismorphia, has low self esteem and self worth, diagnosed with mixed anxiety and depression disorder, a victim of abuse and manipulation. Think thats it…. Not trying to be dramatic or…

  • I’m the self-inflicted mind detonator.

    Hate to say this, and kind of embarrassed to, but people say that im good at a lot of things.That I’m so smart, talented,  whatever. But I know one thing I am good at….self sabotage and being my own worst enemy. I talk myself out of a lot. Dreams, aspirations….I feel like were squandered. But…

  • I’ve been places in my head.

    I’m old….or am I? You would think people at my age would have their stuff together, but here we are. Sometimes it gets depressing how time has passed by and at times feel like not much has been accomplished. So many hopes, dreams, whatever, squandered. And it’s not like I didn’t have the tools, or…

  • All I wanted was a Pepsi.

    Listening to the Spotify account and an oldie but a goodie came on. A lot of the words and lines in the lyrics make me think of myself and my situation. Felt some of it in my angsty teenage years, and to this day even in my “grown up” adult days: “Sometimes I try to…

  • New year, new you….stop it.

    Another year in the books family. Went by so fast. Time in general has been like that. Where does the time go? Did we make most of it? Did we accomplish anything? Did we progress? Maybe. But myself, along with most, don’t feel any different. But think, who’s fault is that? As for myself, the…

  • I don’t know, but today seems kinda odd.

    Well, the holidays are over, almost. I hope everyone is having a great one so far. I can’t complain too much. All things considered, so far, so good. I stated before that we here in the Resound and Rebel household, had an event that almost threw a monkey wrench in the holidays, and just life.…

  • Feeling Minnesota.

    Been thinking….even though I have a lot to be thankful and grateful for, even though for the most part people think I’m this happy go lucky, funny guy, people don’t know what’s really going on. People only see the outside. What I want them to see. The song “Outshined” from Soundgarden has a line that…

  • I’ve got to take my life back.

    On the way in to my day job, an oldie but a goodie played on the radio that made me think. The song was “I Will Be Heard” by metal band Hatebreed. The words in that song ring so true, and in my opinion can pertain to a lot of people’s different situations. May not…