Category: Self Improvement

Self Improvement

  • This isn’t easy.

    That’s right…it isn’t easy. Not only do I need to deal with my personal, everyday life, the world around me seems to be falling apart as well. What to do? We can’t control what we can’t control, so why even try? Need to worry about SELF and all the “human” stuff that goes with it.…

  • And there is no map.

    I know I haven’t posted in a while, but life, you know….how’s the saying go? When it rains, it pours. Well, the storm cloud seemed to have plated itself above me. Am I struggling? Little bit, but I m a work in progress, and I am looking for the silver lining. Got to. “You can…

  • Oh, these sour times…

    Apologies for the delay in posting family,  but as always, life gets in the way. Fires, dealing with anxiety and depression, busted water heaters, and now add the stress of job hunting….life’s good….no, really, life is good. Doesn’t seem like it, and hey, I’m human, and it triggers from time to time, but everyone goes…

  • Watching the world burn…

    I hope the readers of this blog don’t come away with the assumption that I’m all doom and gloom and don’t see the silver lining in most things. I believe I’m just recognizing that life isn’t perfect, nor will it ever be. I’ve gone through some tough times, a little rocky as I write this…

  • Knew not who I was, but listen here.

    Do you know who you are? Do you? I know who I am… in a nutshell,  I’m  a middle-aged, overweight dude who suffers from body dismorphia, has low self esteem and self worth, diagnosed with mixed anxiety and depression disorder, a victim of abuse and manipulation. Think thats it…. Not trying to be dramatic or…

  • I’m the self-inflicted mind detonator.

    Hate to say this, and kind of embarrassed to, but people say that im good at a lot of things.That I’m so smart, talented,  whatever. But I know one thing I am good at….self sabotage and being my own worst enemy. I talk myself out of a lot. Dreams, aspirations….I feel like were squandered. But…

  • Stumbling in the dark.

    I’ve said it before, but life is good. Life is good, but not great. But in thinking about that statement, why isn’t it great? Life is what YOU make of it, no? The outside world is so messed up though… the things, the people. There’s something definitely in the water. You can only control what…

  • I’ve been places in my head.

    I’m old….or am I? You would think people at my age would have their stuff together, but here we are. Sometimes it gets depressing how time has passed by and at times feel like not much has been accomplished. So many hopes, dreams, whatever, squandered. And it’s not like I didn’t have the tools, or…

  • All I wanted was a Pepsi.

    Listening to the Spotify account and an oldie but a goodie came on. A lot of the words and lines in the lyrics make me think of myself and my situation. Felt some of it in my angsty teenage years, and to this day even in my “grown up” adult days: “Sometimes I try to…

  • Who takes the blame? Wait…

    People who have read my articles at Life as a human or visited this site know about some of my history and why I even started this venture. I’ll be honest, even thought he subject matter is very serious, I tend to be the kind of person to make light of things, and sometimes not…